October 23, 2009

We have good news and disappointing news.
Haidyn and I went to pick mom up and took her the #14 from Lenny's, her favorite. She ate it on the way in the back seat with Haidyn. We got to the West Clinic and had about an hour wait so we got to visit and mom patted her grandbaby to sleep. I can't tell you all how much I love seeing my mom love my baby. It has to be relaxing for her nerves to sit and just be a grandmother before facing some tough stuff. Please remember to thank God in all your prayers for blessing this family with Haidyn and the therapy she provides to us all. She smiled at her daddy and I for the first time this morning and I have to tell you that was a feeling I will never forget. The disappointing news is that mom was not prepared for the testing and she was suppose to come on an empty stomach. Since she had just eaten at 11- no test today her blood sugar was too high. Mom was terribly disappointed but this will not hender the schedule for treatment at all.
The great news is that when she got to talk with Dr. B, which BTW was not on the schedule for today, she recieved the MRI results. Mom's brain is free and clear of any cancer or concern! Praise God!! Thank God for all the positive things that are happening for my mom and our family at this time. Not that we expected anything but the best but it sure is a good feeling to get medical reassurance.
More good news, they weren't able to reschedule mom for her PETscan till Tuesday afternoon but during her talk with Dr. B, there was a cancellation for Monday. Right place at the right time. God is really looking over us and making positive things happen. Dr. B is meeting with us on Monday morning at 9:30am for her consult. She is very optomistic about the future for mom and her treatment. We are too!
Monday will be a very long day for mom so please pray for her strength. Not to mention the fact that she will have to be on an empty stomach since our consult is at 9:30am and her PETscan will be at 1:30. The PETscan results will be in within a few hours after it is completed. During the consult Dr. B will go over all mom's test results, treatment options, clinical research drugs and answer any/all questions. Again, she is very optomistic about the results of mom's PETscan so we will proceed Monday morning as if we have those results already and get the game plan for treatment. By the end of the day Monday we will know what mom's treatment plan will be and have all test results completed.
We are very anxious to be on field and off the bench to start the fight. I can't tell you how many ways God has used this waiting period to bless our family this week. Our family has prayed more together, our friends have overwhelmed us all with love and support, the offers of service are more than we ever could have imagined and there have even been reunions of such with extended family. I will never understand God's plan or why cancer is so unfair to anyone facing that diagnosis but I can tell you I am beginning to understand the strength God empowers us all with just when we think we have reached the end of our rope.
Mom hadn't had the opportunity to visit my blog before this morning so as we sat waiting this morning I read everything from the blog to her off my blackberry. For the first time in my life- I felt as strong as my mom (that's pretty strong for those of you who don't know first hand). I was able to read it without a single tear! She was able to listen without a single tear too- in fact we were both smiling. She sat there with her hand on her baby's leg with my baby in her arms. What a precious moment that we never would have had without these circumstances. I read her all the comments. Some I had read before- some were new. Some my voice did shake but still no tear. She was so excited about this forum for me to keep everyone with us on this journey and for she and Ken to be able to find strength and encouragement from friends and family. Although my sister's was the shortest comment it was the hardest to read. I have always been so proud of Erica and mom my whole life for their strength and now they are proud of MY strength. It is only Christ who is strengthening me because even a week ago I know I would not have thought I could report news like this about MY mom. I can't wait to see what else God has in store for our family as we continue on this journey.
We can't show our appreciation to everyone enough for the love, prayers and support we have recieved this week. I know that everyone is praying for mom and Ken, the doctors treating her and our entire family that we will be a support base to keep mom going as she faces the realities and starts treatment. God is always good! As we pray for total healing for my mom I ask that you please remember to thank God for all the ways he is blessing us as well.